Overwhelming Thoughts.................

So much in my head these last couple days...With new ventures comes new thoughts and processes.  Don't get me wrong...I love to think, I thrive on thinking, but sometimes it is overbearing and you just want the answers or the outcomes, but we know that is not in our cards.  We have to travel the waves and take it as it comes along and make the absolute best at what is at hand at the present moment. Do you ever in your heart and soul know that you feel something so strong and that you have no doubts about it but then at the same time are apprehensive as well? It sounds silly but that is how I always operate, I am not sure if this is a defense mechanism that I put up or if this is truly a mixed emotion that needs to be worked out.  Nonetheless, I'm glad that I do operate this way, because I play out all my life scenarios to the fullest in my head as much as I can prior to making any crazy moves.  Does this mean I have been perfect in all my choices...OF COURSE!! Of course, I have not, yet I do not regret any of those bad decisions either because it has made me who I am and taught me a lot of lessons that have been very productive in my life happenings.  

I take so much in and watch and pay attention to all my surroundings.  Many people don't do this and should start to practice this.  You may see, but you need to take it in and feel it.  It makes you see so many issues in your life and others lives as well in a different aspect. For example.   We all use the saying " You don't know what you have until it’s gone" I can't express this enough to all! Now, first let me say this so I can set the record straight! I have this knowledge from experience but not from any of my past relationships, I never make that kind of a decision without being sure of my decision... (Just had to clarify to all those talkers out there!!) Anyways...back to the front! I am just seeing so many people that don't see what they have and maybe not even appreciate it.  This will always happen and we will always see it, but I just think it is an easy fix to pay attention to detail and appreciate! It makes life so much better when you focus on this daily. So, I just ask..To try and practice this...It could change your life! :)

Sorry, I am so jumpy today, but I have a lot going on upstairs, maybe a bit overwhelmed at the present moment in my life.  Many changes have happened and many changes soon to be evolved and it is all a process that takes decisions, clarifications, and peace with what your final outcome is. This is the hard part because you never know what you have in store for you. EVER! So I just go with the flow of life, that is not so easy all the time...actually pretty hard most of the time, but it is all in how you handle it.  My way is to talk...I try and communicate anything that is troubling for me in any way.  I take it on by confronting who, what or why and break it down until I am at least comfortable with the scenarios that could transpire. I then move forward. You cannot hold it in; I don't think this is a healthy choice at any level at all.  This only causes more issues in my eyes.  I need to go back to my head being clouded with emotion, thoughts, new ideas, and so much pondering on so many different items that have been introduced to my life in some sort of way recently..as recent as today! It is so filled that it is even hard for me to express any of it in words. I'm just so blessed to have so many people in my life that I can rely on to help guide me through troubled times or maybe not troubled but questionable times if you will.

I guess maybe I just have lots going on and I needed to express it in my blog as I always do...This happens every so often, but it doesn't last long. I just need to chill ~ focus ~ think ~ breath and all will go smooth.

Thanks for listening :) Goodnight.