We are quite happy to cut it into many small useful pieces

We are quite happy to cut it into many small useful pieces

My new found Realizations............kind of disheartening to say the least!

As I am gaining the understanding of my much needed "Sheryl Time", I have learned so much already.  It took awhile to realize that I now can take the time to understand and fully embrace my own life happenings.  For the last 10 years, I have had constant stress and horrific time restraints and I let so much go and settled for so many things because of this.  I have just come to the understanding that so many people use words to describe who and what they are about , BUT ...there actions do not meet up to that.  You can say anything, but following through is a different story.

Anything I am saying or sharing does not mean that I am exactly correct or that my findings are REAL, although... I will say from much experience and true and real happenings, that I have the confidence that I am most definitely on the right track. The one finding of mine, is very saddening....Actually, they are all sad.  Unfortunately, it has made me see things so different and what once meant a lot to me, has faded dramatically and it because the meaning of certain things in the beginning have veered far away from what they were originally meant to be.  It is kind of hard to describe all this when I am not going to elaborate on names or events that I am talking about, hopefully you will just understand from my explanations.

I believe that we are so easily steered away from what our true intentions really are.  This stems from many different things but the number one item being the fact that everyone has to feel the need to please SOCIETY instead of themselves.  That is not what we are supposed to be about and I suppose that is your choice, but I promise the other side of that fence is so much more rewarding!!! That should not go unnoticed, if you have an intention in your heart, mind of soul...you need to pursue it fully for the good intention that it is, but do it for the right reasons, don't do it for the heroism or the publicity or your own ego boost, this is what I see happening so much around me.  We need to do things for what they truly mean and what the purpose really is for, if you can't handle doing it for the intention itself, then you shouldn't be doing it at all.  Don't give something of yourself that really is not for anyone but YOURSELF!

We have always been taught that its about giving and not receiving, Well most of us have been taught that anyways, but regardless....I think we all need to Check Ourselves on this statement and make sure that is what we are really doing, because remember words have to match our actions and our actions have to flow with our words as well...Meaning, there can't be underlying meaning behind the words that we are selling.

I consider myself very lucky to be able to understand this and see this and make the changes within myself to make myself right.  I will say though, without patting myself on the back, that I have always been who and what I portray.  There was many parts of me that were hidden or that I did not let out due to my own doings, but nonetheless, I realized this and I broke those walls down completely and I can not even explain how great I feel. I let myself settle and be who my surroundings were and what was acceptable in my world.  That is not how it should be, well that's how I feel anyways.  You should always be who and what you are! Even, if others don't agree, that is no one else's choice, we are each individuals for a reason right?

I guess I am going to leave it at this because I have so many more learnings that I want to share and I want to separate them all

Decisions in Life

I went from thinking I had the worst luck in the world and prayed it would go away and always said that , "Someone must have something so awesome for me soon because I cant't handle anymore bad, sad, or troubled happenings in my life."  I felt I was being tested on an hourly basis and those of you who were in my life through these years can attest  that this was beyond  a true statement.  Well, not only did I get one awesome payback, but so many and they keep coming and coming.  Of course some being more then others.  I have had the most incredible man enter back into my life and I have never been happier or felt so complete.  I won't even get into that right now, but thought I would mention but really...sounds silly but it is way to special to even share.  You don't have to really understand that, but I do..so we will leave it at that.  I have had to make some decisions lately, that have been really, really troublesome but I know for the best! It is funny what life can hand you in such a short time.  I have such confidence in my decisions usually, but this one is definitely one that will hang over my heart for a long time.  But again, I feel everything happens for a reason.  I now know that my future holds so many choices and opportunities for me and I intend on living life...like actually really enjoying and living life the way I want to.  I am a simple person and enjoy the most simple aspects of life.  I want to embrace what is out there and take it for what it is.  I am making that decision to venture into my wants and needs and who knows where or what that will bring me, but I am soooooooooooo excited.  I have such an open mind for change.  I can honestly say that NEVER in my life have I felt like this, I know it is a combination of so many things, and really it doesn't matter, the bottom line is that I love what is happening and I finally understand so many things that I questioned before.  I have found the person that compliments who and what I am and I have reached some very big life goals and all of this together with my three beautiful girls and all their accomplishments have lead me down a path of complete satisfaction.  The inner feelings I have are amazing and I am still amazed on a daily basis to all I have been blessed with.  My blood pressure is down and my health is definitely for the better.  My life at hand, is the life I have dreamed about in all reality.  Finally, I have all I want but will always strive for the best for all that are in my life.  You do get what you work so hard for and life should never be underestimated.  Go out and live for what you love, not for what others love or for what you think looks good for society.  You are in complete control of your happiness and that means you live for your loves, wants and needs.  

Have an awesome weekend and remember to do things that make YOU happy :)