Cant wait to be in my own home to start releasing all these unhealthy holdings.....I admit to the need for control at this point. Next week is going to be a rough one to deal with amoungst the other pile of rough ones. So many new lessons learned in the past crazy months, but for all the bad things that have transpired, one great thing came out of all of this and with that said...i will keep all the bad just to be able to keep this one good thing. I will elaborate more when I am settled, I will have more changes, drastic life changes by then as well. Although this has been the most troubling time of my life so far, i have done the most growing, learning and most important...recognizing to say the least. To say I feel like a whole different person might be a bit dramatic but I think it gets my point across. Maybe it is the age or the cutdown on having my brain stuck in a class, but my eyes have never seen so much, taken in so much like never before. I can honestly say that noone knows me and thamt saddens me to a point .I have just found out so much about myself, i cant be sad that noone else does either. I have an amazing person in my life that I have known for many years but never knew the depth and I am cherishing every moment .
Growth has been a big part of my being lately and although it can and has been extremely challenging..I love the feeling of knowing my mnd is so open to change and resolution.
Well, just wanted a small vent... I'm full of happiness, confusion, confidence and most of all love!!!
Until then....think positive
